The year is 2003, and I take a deep breath as I wait in line with my robed and capped counterparts for the sound of my name. "Crystal Rose Guerrero,” I heard the announcer say, so with a tug on my honor cord to straighten it, I stepped onto the stage, searching the crowd for a familiar face that I knew I wouldn't find as I walked across. I grabbed my Bachelor's Degree (from who-knows-who now) shook hands, and glanced at the crowd to see mom, grandma and little sis, I give a half-hearted smile. Something is missing. Awaiting me at the end of the stage, were two of my favorite professors who knew what a tough day this would be for me, smiling broadly, arms open for big hugs and congratulations.
Walking back to my seat from the stage, I again scan the crowd as if he'd magically appear. Nope, no dad. Dad is in Iraq. At this point, my eyes well up, as I think of my dad's words to me upon our last conversation, "I won't be there physically, but I'll be thinking of you. I am so proud of you."
Now, I should point out that at this point my dad was no longer technically a Soldier; he had retired as a Master Sgt. after 24 years of service. Still, he was working as a contractor for the Army and when asked to go for a year, did not consider it a question. I recall our conversation prior to his leaving, with my reasoning at the time being "just quit, you don't HAVE to go anymore, dad." To which he replied, "It’s not a matter of have-to, it's my duty to go." Once a Soldier, always a Soldier. As I sat there in the auditorium, I couldn't decide who was more proud-he of me, or I of him.
It wasn't until his retirement ceremony that I learned that my dad graduated with honors from just about every Army School he'd attended to include Air Assault. All I knew was "daddy is a Soldier, he's gone for periods of time, and I miss him, and he comes home." I knew he went to PT at 0530 every morning, after being up late-nights helping me with homework, and that he made it home to take my sister to daycare, and make sure I ate breakfast, before going to work. I knew that dad that was at just about every parent-teacher conference and game and even chaperoned some of our school trips in Germany. I knew that he was very supportive as my mom was working long, hard hours to excel in her career (which I also admire her for) and that he made sure all of our medical and dental appointments were tracked. What I didn't know was what that took in conjunction with both being a model Soldier, and taking care of his Soldiers.
Overall, I'd like to think I was a pretty good kid, but I recall times where I probably added a lot to his already heavy rucksack. I am grateful for him, for the life he and my mother provided, for his wanting to provide a better life for his family and acting upon it through the Army. I look back upon all the places I've seen, lived and experienced, Germany, Belgium, Holland, Spain, Italy, Greece, Korea (and the list goes on...)--all this from a little rock in the pacific my parents grew up on-Guam. I know that none of this, and nothing I have accomplished in life thus far, would have been possible without the Army, without my dad's dedication to not only living the Army Values, but raising his kids by them.
Most people go their whole lives searching for a hero; they derive them from television, from books, from history. I found my hero the day I was born, right in my own home...My dad, a U.S. Army Soldier. How many people can say that?
(This was my first blog, hope you enjoyed...more to come...ARMY (BRAT) STRONG!)